Traces of you still haunt my memory,
images of this agony so deep from which I wish to break free.
Decisions by you of what was to be,
the choices once made would hurt everyone for all of eternity.

Carefully choosing all the words to say,
echoes of those words lingering in my mind to this very day.
My family I knew destroyed on that night,
you were determined and I had no will left with which to fight.

Your selfish desire of staying in control,
as real heartache you were bringing to each innocent soul.
You cheated, lied and made claims of abuse,
but come judgement day what will you offer as your excuse.

Hiding behind a mask for the world to see,
and inside you carried an evil heart and plan of what was to be.
Now people have questions they want to ask,
and to this day you pretend and stay hidden behind your mask.

I never knew the harm you would cause,
there behind a smile of innocence you hid all of your flaws.
Are you really happy, do you feel you won,
or did you know the damage you had inflicted on everyone.

No idea of the pain I was to go through,
for on that night I did not understand or know who to turn to.
Trying to start a new life but never alone,
for I had found a faithful and lasting love to call my very own.

Staying by my side all through the years,
feeling completely helpless knowing I cried my silent tears.
Loving words of, "Honey, please don't cry."
and I would say, "I'm not crying, I have something in my eye."

The something in my eye are traces of you,
and the heartache and pain you put so many people through.
I have no need or desire to revisit the past,
you are the only one who can answer the questions they ask.


© Brenda Sparkman
August 6, 2007