As night time nears and I sit all alone, I glance again wistfully over at the now silent phone. Wanting to demand the lonely silence to end, To be able to really smile and not ever have to pretend. Inside my heart I know this can never be, Because a year ago you passed away dying instantly. Your life ended by a massive heart attack, The doctors said your arteries were filled with plaque. You were always so healthy and strong, It’s hard to believe something like this could go wrong. Our life planned well into many long years, Now, I sit here alone and cry so many tormented tears. People tell me I should start moving on, But they are not the one with the loved one who is gone. They keep saying with time it will be better, Today I cried as I read your long ago written love letter. Filled with all the love you proclaimed, Once you came into my life I was never to be the same. I look out the front window as the day fades, Getting up I slowly pull down the front window shades. It is finally the time of day I really dread, Knowing I will toss and turn tonight when I go to bed. Longing for your gentle touch I begin to weep, Then at last I finally drift off into a light restless sleep. Each night I hear you calling out my name, I listen for every night the words are always the same. “Honey, I am close you have nothing to fear, Just call me softly and you will know I am always here.” I reach out to touch you just once more, Wanting life together to be the same as it was before. Remembering the special love we both knew, I will spend all of eternity, each night, dreaming of you. © Brenda Sparkman October 1, 2006

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